Today, I woke up late for work. I have bills to pay. More money than I do have. My needs supercede my finances and I still need food. On the radio plays a song “Jesus is my Neighbor” and I am wondering if Jesus as my neighbor is enough. I just made dean’s list at school and I work full-time, own a cleaning company and attend school full-time. What then is my source?
I slow down to think about the errors I made thinking I can do it by myself. The fact that I have whispered prayers without reading or focus and never thought that it wasn’t enough for a relationship. So who’s my source?
I had applied for 13 scholarships at school and did not get any of them. I am back to being self sustained and waiting for an answer who is my source?
I hear a gentle voice responding to me saying “I am your source and your reason for living, for surviving”.
Today, I learned that to keep a relationship a simple hi won’t do. I decide that it is no longer about what God can do for me but it’s about what relationship I can build on my source, around my source, for my source and with my source. My source is found. My source is God the Father, Jesus the son and the Holy Spirit my comforter.